Yes, just 2 more days left behind to run with my busy schedules ! Though might be feeling relieved, the sense of losing something will be there for ever ! Yes, i will be left with no salary from next month and now left with the sense of feeling that i am gonna loose one of my eyes. Though my hubby takes care of each and every need of myne, i still have a strong feeling that i should earn on my own ! Whenever i feel like buying something, i should not depend on anybody and I have never been expecting anything from my parents too after my studies, because i got a job immediately after my graduation and was with full freedom to spend or buy whatever i want ! Yeah...from next month onwards iam totally depended on my hubby to even buy a fruit or chocolate or whatever i want !
Just 2 days left, to scroll through the market road of Saidapet and the Vannandurai stretch in Besant Nagar which stinks very badly. God!! when will you show the mercy towards the fellow members of our soceity!! I have had very bad experiences passing through this stretch and pray to the almighty to take away my sense of smell rather than suffer, you know the disgusting smell of dried fish every time u breathe is a sheer torture.
Just 2 days left, to smile at my dear ones , to give them a warm wish, to wave at my friends, to talk to my dear ones and especially the close friends I travel with every day spending our precious time on giggling and chatting and there are times that we dont even realise that we had to get down at the station....we are ahead ! We in turn thanked those friends who have reminded us that we are nearing Sanatorium station! Many a times it was like we got down in a hurry burry and that makes me amazing on what topic we were on ! I should thank the train journey (and ofcourse the share auto & bus ride too !) and was fortunate enough to have many friends though they are not very much close to me !
It is the right time for me to say that the travelling has given me a good exposure and earn lots of friends and that has even fetched me a very good business (Tupperware) too ! Sometimes, it happens that I dont go behind customers and customers are behind me for the products ! Though one of my so called friend who use to travel with me in train had ditched me by not paying the money for a product she's purchased (its a different deal that i am not gonna leave her without taking the money), no regrets that I have got good busines through my friends ! Its 3 months since she's dodging me and my friends literally yell at me for not being so strict with the lady. Ya...i should agree at this point, I cant show my long face to my friends (not even to the so called friends) and if at all that happens, the grudge wont stay back longer ! Though I know they've ditched me, still if they attempt to talk, i will react the same way I was ! I dunno whether it is an advantage or disadvantage of me ! BUT IT IS A FACT THAT IAM NOT A PERSON TO BE CHEATED BY OTHERS SO EASILY, except being emotional !
I joined this office just 11 months back and has given me many good friends (personally as well as blog) and I do not know if I will get any like them in my future ! My previous job was more like an extension of my college days !
I am spending my last working days mailing and chatting with my friends. I am really sad that I could not bug my friends anymore like this ! Some may feel fortunate and some may feel unfortunate too ! It mayl be a bit tough to walk out of the doors for one last time, because this organisation had given me so many things except work in recent times.
It was like everyday when i meet friends i keep telling them that iam moving out of Chennai and the friends whom i meet regularly does do the count down part like me and says "Sumi just 2 days left" and it was then that I realised that I had so many well-wishers than I thought I had !
while on the subject, I read this poem somewhere sometime back and I wanted to unveil my feelings for my friends here. So, I thought i would post it here, which is surely the replica of my mind !Missing someone is terrible but it is a sweet feeling. It makes you wondering if u meant anything for him/her, thinking if he/she ever cares about u.Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him/her,missing the final episode of your favourite show.Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u were out together.Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your mail, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness.It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.U feel as if u are being left alone.So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.At the same time, ask if they miss u.Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoia.If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.If u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait.And if the one you are missing can't/doesn't reciprocate,MOVE ON!!Life is short, so instead of being hurt & waiting around-Move on!!Believe in Urself & life, there's someone out there waiting to miss U too !!!